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Wednesday, 27 February 2013

Dancing Bunnies


The colours override the midnight moon;

It soaks in blue, blue pink and red
They spin around the young girls weary head
The bunnies, they dance with grace,
Around and around they go.
Dizzying the room they can feel the gaze
The girls eyes flicker with concentration, 
And Peace begins to creep.
The shadows begin to take shape.
Darkness no longer has a place.
Fear is just a whim.
Dreary, dreary; not so weary, as she reaches out to touch
The bunnies they just keep on moving; dancing as they must. 

Thursday, 14 February 2013

Learning from one another.

   In all honesty, I could write a novel on this subject. But I will try and compress all my thoughts.
Yesterday I was in conversation with someone about religion, and commented on something I had heard recently, that we all need each other. We need the different ideas and thoughts; we need debate and disagreements. Without these things we would become so unbalanced, so arrogant, and probably miss out on some vital things.

Walking away from this conversation, I kept thinking about it.
Every person has something so precious to offer. Something to offer me. Everyone was created by the Divine, and He placed such a specific part of Himself in all of his creation, especially humanity which was created in His image. I don't know if anyone else finds this as cool as I do!
In my opinion that means that I can learn about God and a part of who He is as much from a Christian, as a Muslim, or an atheist. Every person I come in contact with can open a new perspective of the Divines being - Gives me a whole new mindset on the way I look at, and even treat people.



Sometimes when I am on the bus in the mornings, jam packed with people I look around and am so in awe with all the different types of people there are, and how they all have something beautiful in them and something to teach me.

One morning across from me there was this man with a long dark coat, spikes coming out his face, black nail polish, and black makeup on and beside him sat a guy a little over weight, glasses on face and gameboy in hand. They were squished together, and I thought it was such a beautiful sight.
One you only see on the bus, but I thought, wouldn't it be cool if they could find more in common than the fact that they rode the 95 bus together, if they decided they could learn from one another and that both had important and vital pieces to them that only they could ever share.

That is one reason I find myself so disappointed that we separate our churches into denominations, or that we don't find more ways to connect with each other. I want to learn from the baptists or Catholics. I don't know why we all have to agree in church? God is too diverse for any of us to get Him completely rounded off this side of Heaven.



This is an argument I use often in my field, it helps to bring the value of people who have disabilities upfront. There have been a few debates that we have had, on mercy killings of people with disabilities, who are in pain or can't do anything for themselves and are solely dependant on others (which I find to be beautiful, aren't we all dependant? Just because they are just dependant in an obvious way, doesn't give anyone any right to take away their humanity.) {over that tangent}. But I every time bring to the table how their humanity is no different than my own. That every person I have worked with has taught me something, and that is something you cannot argue.
We will never fully know what goes on inside the mind of the non-verbal disabled man, or the one that goes from bed to wheelchair to bed in a day, and that is sacred.

You can never take away a soul of a person, and one of the best and most fun parts of my job is to dig deep and allow others to see the beauty I do. Show people that maybe Bill shows his personality through the way he blinks, and that can never be taken away.

I just recently left my job, where I was working with adolescents with behaviours, and on the days that I would struggle to not take the punch I got in the face to heart. I would think of the things they taught me about God, and find it easier to love them the way the Divine does.

So today, on Valentines, take a moment to look at people differently. Look at them in awe and love and wonder. Look at them with the knowledge that they are unique and can show you a world of something -different-, something you need to learn.


Wednesday, 30 January 2013

L'Arche



  Ever since I decided I wanted to be a Developmental Service Worker, it became a dream of mine to be  a part of the beautiful community called L'Arche. I was planning on being a teacher when I read "Here and Now" by Henri Nouwen and it suddenly all changed.

Take a moment to watch this. He is the real deal.

  Two years later in the field, I have been in many different environments, schools, day programs, in home care, and group homes in a few different agencies. I have loved every minute of it and have enjoyed learning so much from the people I've supported. But, I still hadn't gotten that L'Arche experience yet, until now. For my last school placement I chose to go to L'Arche Ottawa and have been there for almost a month now. I have loved my time there, but it has also made me extremely confused.

It has brought back all these dreams I formerly had of L'Arche. It is such a beautiful community.
Last week we brought some of the Core Members to Prayer at a Catholic church for Christian Unity week.

It was such a cool experience seeing the candle lit room filled with people cross-legged singing out prayer and the core members (trying) to sing along. It was a moment I felt so much peace and happiness. It was a real learning moment of never shutting the door of your heart to anyone; no matter the religion, no matter the ability or disability. Everyone there was unified and perfect under the grace of the Divine.
This week I went to community night and we heard a video message from Jean Vanier.
"When fear decreases than trust can increase and you can have a more whole relationship."
I have also decided I need to go to Trosly to see the original L'Arche and meet Jean Vanier. (It'll happen, people)
My heart tells me this is where I am supposed to be, and as my job gets more increasingly tough and I burn out more doing the behavioural side of the field it seems more and more appealing.
There are still two things though;
- Though I never wanted my life to be based off of this, the pay really is barely livable.
-The other problem is I don't know if they would take me on full time as a live-out assistant.

I am writing all this to get it off my chest and to ask for prayer, thoughts, or good vibes (whatever you're into I'll take it) from you all.
This really is a moment of trust. I need to release it so it may be orchestrated outside my control; I need to let it blossom and be what it will, while I just be still.

This picture captures everything I feel with all that is ahead of me.

Friday, 25 January 2013