My lazy morning.

 

L'Arche

  Ever since I decided I wanted to be a Developmental Service Worker, it became a dream of mine to be  a part of the beautiful community called L'Arche. I was planning on being a teacher when I read "Here and Now" by Henri Nouwen and it suddenly all changed.

Take a moment to watch this. He is the real deal.

  Two years later in the field, I have been in many different environments, schools, day programs, in home care, and group homes in a few different agencies. I have loved every minute of it and have enjoyed learning so much from the people I've supported. But, I still hadn't gotten that L'Arche experience yet, until now. For my last school placement I chose to go to L'Arche Ottawa and have been there for almost a month now. I have loved my time there, but it has also made me extremely confused.

It has brought back all these dreams I formerly had of L'Arche. It is such a beautiful community.
Last week we brought some of the Core Members to Prayer at a Catholic church for Christian Unity week.

It was such a cool experience seeing the candle lit room filled with people cross-legged singing out prayer and the core members (trying) to sing along. It was a moment I felt so much peace and happiness. It was a real learning moment of never shutting the door of your heart to anyone; no matter the religion, no matter the ability or disability. Everyone there was unified and perfect under the grace of the Divine.
This week I went to community night and we heard a video message from Jean Vanier.
"When fear decreases than trust can increase and you can have a more whole relationship."
I have also decided I need to go to Trosly to see the original L'Arche and meet Jean Vanier. (It'll happen, people)

My heart tells me this is where I am supposed to be, and as my job gets more increasingly tough and I burn out more doing the behavioural side of the field it seems more and more appealing.
There are still two things though;
- Though I never wanted my life to be based off of this, the pay really is barely livable.
-The other problem is I don't know if they would take me on full time as a live-out assistant.

I am writing all this to get it off my chest and to ask for prayer, thoughts, or good vibes (whatever you're into I'll take it) from you all.
This really is a moment of trust. I need to release it so it may be orchestrated outside my control; I need to let it blossom and be what it will, while I just be still.

This picture captures everything I feel with all that is ahead of me.

Montreal weekend ahead of me...

Our Journey Home

'When we were in prison - Christians of different denominations - we were united. But now we are free, we no longer talk to each other. New walls stand between us. We learned how to live together in prison, but we don't know how to cope with freedom.'

differences creates a widened intellect. openness to differences creates community. We all preach that we are right and create the danger of missing out on a different aspect of the world, ourself and most sadly the Divine.
lets learn to live together in freedom, in peace.